i know that voice is there.  i know that guiding hand is there.  i cannot feel it sometimes.  but i just know its there.  the guiding hand that takes my hand and looks me in the eyes and speaks to me in a way that is undeniably True.  you can see it in those eyes.  and i know those eyes.  i have seen those eyes.  i used to see two sets of eyes.  one was very dark and sinister.  masculine. that was when i was a child. then as a young adult, while still seeing those dark sinister eyes in my dreams… that's how i would see them.  just a pair of dark molten red eyes, emerging from the infinite black and pushing right towards me and those eyes were right up to my eyeballs' watery edges. i started seeing another pair of eyes, these new eyes, when i left home for university.  these new eyes would often appear, not in my dreams but when i was asked in some classroom or group exercise, "where do you see yourself in 5 years, 10 years, 20 years?" and that's when would see these new eyes. crystal clear, blue-green and white hair flying around the outline of her face. i never see her face, just the eyes, but i know its a woman. smoothly approaching, taking just two or three confident incoming swifts, as she was already quite close when she initially appears. and really really close so that's all i could see but at a place where i could see into them and them into me. and i feel Certainty. the certainty of me. we will keep meeting again and again, these crystal blue-green persuasions. each time i remember my True self.

feur yuhr faeaveaur

mar 28 '11

"It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before, to test your limits, to break through barriers. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.... Creation which cannot express itself becomes madness." ~anais nin

reinstating mission

in pursuit of the betterment of my own irreplaceable life, i necessarily improve the lives of others

value, imagine, investigate, practice, take care, visualize and realize.

or nothing at all.

WWPND

i just realized he already told me what to do....

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

stop.

dump the punks.

an old note from the beginningsss...

an old note from don.

the initiating inquiries that became the backbone of our friendship and ongoing discourse (still conversing):

sometimes i contemplate my favorite color, but more often i conetmplate things along these:
::SEVEN QUESTIONS::
1. if time is the device for measuring the distance between events, then how old is everything and what time is it?
2.how do you express the convicted values of your unrepeatable individual Mind?
3.how would you describe the peculiar sensibility that each woman, and no man, uses to intuit the focus of your interests?
4.do you think that moral porn is a contradiction in terms?
5.what is the role of art in the life of Man and the connection between art and politics?
6.what circumstances would you most wish to experience as real and would this produce ecstatic joy for you?
7. i am not asking whether you play sex games, but if you do, then are you playing with some serious goals or intentions?

and sayin sOMething

just... yeS.

>>Bruce Springsteen on Jon Stewart<<